Argh!

The last week or two has just been... nothing horrible or anything, but I'm having a resurgence of hormonal emotionalness, and then I climbed really hard Friday evening and woke up on Saturday with this almost crippling hip pain. I'm nervous about suddenly discovering terrible arthritis, so the weekend-long hip pain made me unhappy although it didn't stop me from going climbing outdoors on Sunday - mostly because I had already arranged to go with four of my favorite climbing peeps.

Two Aleve helped me through the day, and I ended up climbing pretty hard - I got up four 5.11s, and I was particularly pleased to climb Roofburner clean, as well as leading Suicide Squeeze.

OK, so a big deal is that I'm doing this nine day elimination diet, to be really nice to my digestive system and get off of wheat for a little while. But I've had huge emotional barriers to doing an elimination diet, and now that I've actually started it I feel like I'm on the verge of throwing a tantrum, constantly.

What do you mean I can't have a beer??? What do you mean I can't have a piece of toast???

I'm taking tomorrow as a vacation day so I can go shopping with my friend, which we've talked about for ages but haven't managed to fit in to our crazy modern lives.

And I feel guilty about it. I feel guilty about everything, which may be a sign of my hormonal stress. I feel guilty about not being at work, I feel frustrated about work, I feel guilty every time I go climbing and am away from my man and my dog, and I feel frustrated if I don't go climbing.

I'm not good at taking care of MY needs.

And I haven't been finding time to do fannish things, and that makes me melancholy.